Christmas should have been much better

Ever since we had the family issue (it was running for the past 2 years, and still going on) our Christmas is such a mess, i remember my parent's living room confession about something sensitive in my case, and the case of my siblings last Christmas 2005. They were having a discussion inside the house while we, me and my siblings were outside with our yaya. then during Christmas 2006, my parents were having a discussion which let us siblings outside (again) waiting. probably, this Christmas is the best one i have since the issue because there were no discussions, just plain eating. by reading this post, you think of me now as a greedy person with gluttony always beside me. well you're wrong, i said that because that's 25% of what we did this Christmas, Another 2% is for texting, watching tv and using the computer which gives us a total of 100. weird, why am i doing this? never mind. i just wish i had a better Christmas. (or do i?)